My weekends was super enjoyable!
Saturdays was super fun!
Chalet at taufiks family chalet, met with the lovelies, faced my fears and cuddled with everyone.
Well, the last one .. Not really, mostly irfan. Haha!
He's sucha sweetheart, i swear.
Since shawn is all up on him, i wondered why is irfan so okay with it?
So i cuddled up to irfan, and gosh.
He's so freaking warm.
He's like a dad i always wanted..
I mean no offence to my dad, i love hin a lot!
But this is different, haha!

Anyways,
I love 'em.
I faced my fears too, i met with an old friend who lied and everything about me,
I know we should let it go,
I know.
But it hurts that your best friend does that,
Anyways i've been there before but i dont know why i feel so upset. Oh well.

I didnt get any sleep so i was being all nice, cranky, fiesty and mad sleepy.

But apparantly to some,
I was hilarious.

" I think i'm not in love. I think i just wanna have sex with you to forget about the feelings i have with you."

Happy valentines's day!
I celebrated my V-day with my lovelies.

First Irfan fetched me from school, then met amin afterwards went to pasir ris for my Drawing lesson, slacking time!
Then me and amin went to surprise rif at under his blk with a rose!
Aww, we are so sweet!

Wanna hear a story of saint valentines?

In the third centuary,
Emperor Claudius passed his law, stating that marriage is cancelled. Saint valentine was a priest in rome,
he secretly marry couples who wish to get married because he believed in love.
One day, he got caught and his sentenced was death but before he died, couples everywhere, visit him in jail.
They wanted him to know that they too, believed in love because of him.
The prison guard allowed his daughter to visit st valentines in the cell. She helped him to keep his spirits up. On the day he died, He left her a little note thanking her for her friendship and loyalty. He signed it, "Love from your Valentine."
From then on, that note started the custom of exchanging love messages on Valentine's Day. It was written on the day he died, February 14, 269 A.D.

Haha! I told you, i did my research. ;) well, tomorrows presentation but i'm headin' to school at 3pm.
YAY!

Well, i'm off to bed soon.
I had so much fun today. I really did.

So didn't went off to school today.
What's new?
I just wanted a day's rest after working like fuck on thurs and fri.
I hate night shifts.
Oh well, pay is awesome though.

Saturday was the 'hairspray' audition and i fucked at it again.
I couldn't sing 'cause i was bloody nervous and i forget most of my dance steps.
Yes, i cried. I cried 'cause i humiliated myself and i know i can do better but i couldn't.

I'm growing old. Gosh, i hate feeling that. I can't do anything anymore.
I can't play the drums, i can't play arcade without breakin' my back, i can't do most of the things i'm awesome at.

Sigh. I really wish i had a wish.
I would wish that i'm young again.
I hate growing old.